Life the past few weeks.

So, I know that I have not been on here in a while and that makes me sad because I have alot to say and I want to keep you guys updated. First I want to let everyone know that I am thankful for all the good comments that I get when I am asking for feedback makes me feel like someone is listening even when I just ramble. The second is, my dog is finally getting the point he is not peeing in the house hardly at all and he is just being the good ol dog I knew he was expect he does like to bark alot and I am trying to get that under control before we get the cops called on us. I mean he is fine 80 percent of the time just the other 20 percent we want to kill him. He also goes under my bed I know that may sounds weird but I just don't want him under there because I have no idea if he is going to pee or what. So, I am trying to keep him out of there and that is hard. If anyone has an suggestions on that stuff I would love to hear them.

Now on to the other things that have been happening. I am not one to tell people about my issues that my husband and I are having, but I have just been having a tough time and I need to let it out. Andrew and I have been fight way to much for comfort and other things have happened I will not go into detail because I want that private but I just need to know what we should do. I think that we need counciling but we just don't have the money with it being tite and all. I just want us to live a happy and healthy life together and arguing all the time will not help at all it just pushes us from each other. Andrew is under alot of stress because he has to work full time and go to school full time and that is hard on me because I never see him. I also have stress on me because I need another job that pays pretty good so that I can help Andrew out and he can cut hours at work and focus on school. If anyone has any idea of good paying work that would be great. But yeah that is my little rant about our problems.

I have been apply for jobs like I told you in the past and I have been on a few interviews, but no answer and all I am doing is playing the waiting game. I just need something that can benefit Andrew and I both. He needs less stress and so do plus I will have something to do so I am not paying attention to the fact that my husband is gone all the time. I really am a good worker I just think I am in a slump that i need to crawl out of. I know there are alot of jobs out there just not alot where you make good money and that is what I need. So, once again if anyone has ideas I am open for any.

I am so excited for the holidays it is my favorite time of the year and it just makes me happy. I love seeing all the pretty lights and listening to good music. I also love the cold you get to snuggles up to your sweetheart and have hot chocolate well when you can. Its all just great stuff. I am so thankful that I have a great family that I can count on and help me when I need it the most. I have the best in laws and husband. I just hope to spend many more years with all of them. Well, that is it and I hope all is good with you guys. Thanks for tuning in. :)

Whats on my mind.........

I have a few things on my mind that I need to share or I will explode. LOL! Well, the first is I have been having a hard time with my husband and his school. I have not worked very much lately which is a story in its own but since I have not worked I am at home all day by myself with no one around. kinda wears on me after a while. Andrew is gone from 6 am to 10pm and when he gets home he wants to do his homework of course, so after a while it kills our marriage because I am upset and he is upset because I am. We fight over everything... Plus he got me a puppy because I am by myself and it helps because he keeps me busy but I need a person that I can spend time with ya know.. Anyway... I guess I am a baby, I just need some advise. The second thing that is on my mind is my dog he is such a little terror and he doesn't listen. I mean i know it takes a while for beagles to learn but I sometimes have a hard time being patient. I mean I live an apartment and all the messes he makes I have to clean and if there are stains I have to make sure they are out. I mean even if I lived in a house I would clean it good because I don't want my house to stink but I just am having a hard time with him. I live on the third floor and its sucks to take him out every hour. Oh and he whines about everything!!!!!!!!! I mean everything , when he wants attention when he is in his kennel when he needs to pee(sometimes about the pee). I just need someone to tell me what to do and to help me help him. Now, finally I have financial things on my mind. I need to find another job, when I told you that a job was a different story I have not been having good hours and we really need it. So, I have been trying to find a new job but no one ever calls back. Makes me wonder what is wrong with me, I mean I need to find out some info on what I am doing wrong because I need to find a job. We are suffering bad for me not working as much as i should. I guess that is what is on my mind today.. Any advise would be welcome!

New Puppy!!!!

I have a puppy!!! His name is Hunter. I love him so much. He makes me so happy everyday, well everyday that I have had him so far which is like three days :) He is fun and so hyper all the time keeps me busy for sure. I think that is why Andrew got him for me so that I wasn't all by myself and that I could keep busy, because I have been getting depressed lately... I know sad, but I am fine so no one worries. Now back to the puppy... He is great! I have my troubles but he is a puppy/baby, so getting up twice a night to take him to the bathroom is normal and just plain old teaching him. He is good overall though, doesn't pee in the house that much and he goes to bed when its time he is slowly learning but he is learning. Love him!!!!!!!! Here are some pictures.

Morning fun!

Well, this morning was great! I haven't been to institute in like 2 years, and today I went and just loved it. It makes me feel so good when I go to places where I can learn even further about the gospel. Then after that Andrew and I went to lunch at the Union Building, by the way I take institute with him which is nice because I get to spend more time with him. The sad part was when I had to leave him there so he could finish out his classes and I had to come home by my self. LOL! Its ok though he will be back around 6 or 7 and that will be nice. I just wish that I had more to do and had more friends around to spend my extra time with. Its ok though I try and get things done around my apartment. Plus I do need to do our bills. They just sit and pile up so I need to orginize them that way we don't end up not paying something. I hope that you are all enjoying that I am writing more, but I just ramble so sorry that is what you have to to deal with if you want me to write. Thanks for listening in.

Andrew and I for Eternity

So, I have decided that I am going to start walking to the library more. Well, walking anywhere for that matter. It feels good when I do it, plus I might lose some weight while I am at it. I just have to make sure that it is not blazing hot like it has been or I will die for sure. I don't know how people can walk in the 100 degree weather, it amazes me. LOL! Anyway.. Andrew and I have been doing good in our marriage, remember a while back when I was talking about us fight alot about anything and everything, well we are doing good now. We have learned to budget our finances and to make good choices when spending. We also learned to how to cope with our feelings with out making each other scream. That is a Major one because for some reason when one person is mad they like to make the other one be that way also and it turns into a screaming match. I just think that overall we felt that it wasn't a good idea for us to be that way and def not healthy for our marriage. We learned to deal with life and us at the same time. I guess that is part of marriage and its long road. I am glad that we have our trials because it helps me be stronger and I am sure I can say the same for Andrew as well. We love each other more than the day we got married and that is a big step I think because that means you have been through trials and actually made it all the way through them. Andrew started school today and he just loved it. He loves his classes and he loves that he is finally studying toward is major. I am so proud of him and all that he has and will accomplish. I know that I picked a great guy to marry and I am so happy that I get to spend eternity with him. ;) ;)

Life in General

So, it is Sunday Aug 23rd and I am just depressed with the new school semester. Andrew starts school full time and of course works full time, so I will never see him at all. He will be gone from 6am to till 9pm. I don't work that much because our store hasn't been meeting in sales so, therefor the employees suffer in hours. It sucks big time, so I am trying to find another job where I can work more hours and more money. It will help us so much with bills and just to have extra money and we're not living pay check to pay check. If anyone has any job ideas let me know. Anyway.. when I don't work I will be stuck at my tiny apartment all day by myself LOL! I am sorry that I am complaining, it is just kinda therapy for me to write things going on in my life down. If you get tried of me writing these things just let me know and I will change what I say LOL! I mean you have to read it so I will understand. Oh I also wanted to talk about my car it stopped again and went back to the shop. I am so angry!!! Now Andrew and I have to figure something out to get him to his school and work and me to work when I do. So, we will see. But back to the car they still can't fix whatever is wrong with it. I am just tired of bringing it in, I will not bring it home this time until they are for sure that it will work. The guys has been really good with explaining things though and it helps me understand I just hate that things are acting up and no one can figure it out. I need two cars plus I am paying a car payment on a car that isn't working no cool at all. Well, that is my rant. Thanks for listening. ;)

Adventrues!

Hey friends!! There are some things to talk about that have happen to us recently. We went to the plasma center and while we were on the freeway there was this small garbage can thing rolling all over, we had almost hit it along with so many other cars. Crazy stuff!!! I went with Andrew to his orientation for being a transfer student to the "U", it was so boring and interesting at the same time. LOL! I am so happy for Andrew though he has worked so hard to get to this point and that just makes my heart happy. I know that he will do great and accomplish his goals and dreams. I plan to support him just like he will when I go back. We also have rearranged our apartment and I really love how it turned out, more space this way. But I just need to figure out what I will do with my Love Sac it looks stupid where I put it plus it just takes up space. So, I don't know if I want to sell it or not, any idea's? There was a fire yesterday with all that crazy wind we has and the smoke traveled all the way down to Murray it was crazy, I saw limbs and other garbage everywhere, quite the trip. My car has been having troubles which just irritates me to no end, it has been acting up recently which is weird when the accident it was in was two years ago. Anyway.. I am glad that it has a warranty or I would be paying out the butt, but now they have no idea how to fix what is wrong with it. I just want to trash it even though its not that old. LOL! Anyway.. That is about it for our little adventures if you can call them that. :)

Love!!!!!!!!!

Life is a roller coaster I have decided! We have ups and downs with everything that we do. I have learned as long as we have a good attitude and take life with a grain of salt we can live a happy life and deal with life's trials. I have a lot to be stressed about right now, but I also have a lot to be thankful for like good friends and family. I have a wonderful family that supports Andrew and I in all that we do and are there when we need them the most, great or small. I also have great friends that I can depend for advice and just plain old chit chat. Life is great for us because we have good attitudes about our trials which makes life bliss. Andrew and I love each other and that will never change. We may want to rip each others heads off at times but that is part of marriage but we love and cherish each other. If I have learned anything from this crazy world its that you never know what tomorrow will bring so, live each day as its as if its your last. Andrew and I do so much together and that helps our relationship to bloom more and more. We have learned through the year and 10 months we have been married that you have to experience each others passions even if you think its weird or just not your thing. You may find out you like it and like I said before you grow closer together because you may find out new things about your partner. I love life right now and I wouldn't change it for anything, my husband means the world to me and I know he would say the same about me. :)

Cooking/Weight control/Finances

So, there hasn't been a whole lot going on. We are finally being better with our money and learning how to manage it better, which is great now we can climb out of this hole we are in. Even through it all we love each other and are willing to work on this together we didn't let finances get the best of us. I feel like I am emotionally feeling better which is great because I was a sad person for a long time I hid it well right? LOL!

I have learned to cook in my crock pot and I love it know!!!( I know what you are thinking its easy to use,) well when I got it for my wedding I didn't really look at it so I thought it was going to be this long process of finding the right temp and screwing it up because I cooked it too long or we get sick because I cooked it too short of time. Its all good all it is two buttons and your done and you go about your day. Its great for sure!! The more I look at things and kinda play around with them the better I get at it, well cooking. I am addicted to it which my husband loves and hates. Love because he gets good food and hates because we go to the store a lot to get this and that which can be expensive oops!! I am sure he can live as long as I am feeding him right? ;)

Now about weight loss, I think I am at a total loss because I just simply can't put food down and only eat little portions. I also love certain foods and when I stop eating them I am sad which makes me come back and eat them anyway. Exercise I am trying to go but it gets hard because I don't want to go plain and simple and I really don't want to go by myself which sometimes I have to because I have to work when Andrew is off. It kinda sucks. I just need discipline and I don't have it. Andrew tries but I get mad because he tells me no and he gets mad because he is only trying to help and that's how we end. I just think that I will stay fat forever!! I need advise I guess. Anyone?? That's it for today....

First off I want to say sorry. I have been really lazy with not updating my blog. I promise I will try and update it every week. I don't have any excuses. LOL! Well first off Andrew and I are still working at our jobs so, that is good that there hasn't been any lay offs for us. Andrew is getting ready for school. He applied to the "U" about a month ago and has not received anything saying yes or no yet. We have been annoyed because it is taking so long, but I am sure that he will be accepted because he has good grades and all that jazz. ;) The 4Th of July was great for us! We spent the day in Layton which is were my family lives. We started the day with parade which my brother was in because he is on the football team for Northridge. So, it was nice to see him and watch all the other floats. Then we have a table we save every year by the playground(so that the kids can play and we can keep an eye on them.) so we walked over there and visited till dinner time and we had chicken like we always do. I love our tradition in makes me so happy to be able to see everyone I don't see as often as I would like. After we eat and visit some more we walk back to my grandma's visit more LOL and then watch the fireworks! We can see the fireworks from my grandma's front yard which is great because we don't have to walk back and do fireworks at home, But that was my wonderful holiday!

Some of the other things that we have done are hiking. Andrew is a big outdoors guy and hiking is what he like to do the most. We hike to see all these awesome waterfalls, waterfalls are his passion. He has hiked to about 50 waterfalls no joke. I have seen a few with him, but I need to get into better shape to get up some of those mountains so he takes me to the ones that are medium, not strenuous. Its so fun when we go though, I feel closer to Andrew because we are doing what we loves, just like I am sure he feels the same when we do what I love. I am glad that have a sweet and passionate husband it makes life fun and interesting. ;) This is all I have for now. I hope that you enjoyed some of our adventures.

The picture to the left is Lisa falls and the one to the right and bottom is in Mount Nebo.

So, I know it has been along time since I have posted, but its been crazy for us with ups and downs. Right now Andrew's Grandpa Black on Andrew's side is not doing so good. We are thinking that we might have a funeral soon and that makes us very sad one of our downs. We try and visit as often as we can so that we can get as much time as we can. We have been trying to get over there and do some of grandma's yard work so, she can rest and spend time with him also plus it makes us feel good that its getting done.

On another note Andrew and I have been having a hard time with all kinds of things it seems like lately... We fight alot and we are trying to slowly talk everything out. I am not going to lie it is hard but we know that we love each other more than anything and that we never want to end up divorced so, I think that is a big step for us to realize and will help us when we need it most. We have alot on our plate right now and we just need to take it step by step. I just want Andrew to know that I love him with all my heart and I am thankful for all that he does for me and everyone else. You are an inspiration to me and I thank God everyday that I found you. You make my world complete and I hope and pray to have many more memories with you and our future family. We make a great team and love will get us through!!!!

Now for some fun stuff we went to Idaho and went to Twin falls and looked at some great waterfalls. I think all together we saw 6, it was amazing what god creates and it breaks m heart when people can look around and not believe in god. He sure does some amazing things. When we went to twin we brought a newly found and good friend of ours. Her name is Natalia she came from Brazil to see what all the US has to offer and to see some beautiful sites. She is great and sweet girl and I enjoyed having her long for the trip and I know that she loved all the sites. The missionaries are teaching her right now and Andrew and I have the opportunity to sit in and see the progress she makes each and every discussion. It truly has made my testimony grow in how the spirit works on each person. I know what my experience was as a convert but seeing others and how it works with them is truly amazing. How ward is really big in missionary work and it makes me happy to see new member all the time. We are a growing ward and the people are just great!! I think doing all of this in the ward and meeting new converts helps our relationship and that makes me happy to have a strong marriage and even in our dark times we can always find time to help others.

Well, that is all that is new in our lives and I hope that I didn't offend anyone with talking about church and what I believe. That would be the last thing I would want is for someone to be mad and stop reading because I offended anyone. I love you all thanks for tuning in.;) I will put some pictures up of our trip next.

Waterfall Video

Here is a video for you all.. I have more so let me know if you want me to post more stuff tches!! Tchau!!

Timpanogos Falls

E ai tches!! Yes.. this is a record posting for me.. Andrew.. lol. Two in a row.. I need to help Angel out here. I went on a sweet but somewhat brief hike on the Aspen Grove Trail near Timpanogos in Orem, Utah. What stopped my friend David from work and I was time and mainly the snow still on the trail. It was a sweet hike and one I want to do again when the snow melts and go sometime in late June through late September. Especially with the foilage. Angel had to work but she would love the first part of it. I love nature and the outdoors and everything included in it.. sports and camping and I especially am passionate about waterfalls. I will post more soon!! Here is a few! Tchau!!

Finals

E ai tches!!! I am late on this posting. This is Andrew of course. I am happy to say that finals are over and I did very well.. I of course got an A in portuguese and a B in my maps and measurements class and also a C in Trigonometry and I was happy about that cause I was stressed on finals for that cause my last two tests for some reason I bombed. This means that I can consistently do well in math en route to my degree in meteorology!!! Still no word on my biology/lab grade.. droga! Oh well.

Living and Learning from Life

Today has been a good day! I had it off and spent the day relaxing and watching some favorite shows of mine. The only thing that would have made it better is having Andrew here. I can't wait till four years from now I can spend more time with him because we won't be so busy with school and the things that right now keep us apart! ;) All of this will pay off in the end so in the mean time patience is the key I have learned!

I recently have started donating plasma with Andrew. Its not as bad as I thought it was going to be! I am excited that I have a second job to help us with our finances till we can get better jobs or school done with which ever comes first. I think that its the easiest way to get extra money plus not only does it help me it helps others as well which makes me feel better. ;) Even though I am donating plasma I have been looking for another job that will help support the one I have, but the way things are these days its hard not getting a call back after the first interview. So, I am going to try harder I guess and try new strategy's for interviewing. If anyone has any idea's I would love them.

OK, so there is this girl that lives in my apartment complex that is a B@#&%! I was coming home from work like a month ago and this women was walking in front of me. She was kinda weird so I kept my distance. At the top of the walk up to the apt buildings she turned around and said Girl, you are one ugly b&^%$. I said excuse me and she kept walking. I didn't say much else because she was way scary looking and I didn't know if she would pull a gun our or something. I told Andrew and he was so angry he wanted to find her but I didn't see where she lived so, we kinda blew it off. Then like a couple days ago I was getting in the car with Andrew to go to work and she walked right in front of us and she flipped me off Andrew asked me if I knew the girl and I said that is the one that did the thing last month. He rolled down the window and said hey hey what the hell do you think your doing and she just kept walking. We left because I was going to be late. So, he said next time she does anything we will follow her and find where she lives. In the mean time we reported it to the managers and all they said is they can't do anything because they don't know where she lives but they didn't look like they were too concerned. That made me mad because now I am scared to walk around because she looks like a crazy person. I have no idea what to do but have Andrew with me at all times. Seems like no ones cares either enough to do something if it happens again. I guess I will just have to see. It sucks though. That is all I have for this post though sorry if I bored anyone LOL! ;)

Spring Fever!!!!!!

Hey friends! Its been a little while again since I have been on. We haven't had a whole lot happen so its no big deal LOL! Well, Andrew is still going to school and working. I am still working and looking into school. Fall is looking good for me school wise and I am excited! I am dieting better and I have lost about 5 pounds so that is great for me. I just need to keep at it and I will get to my goal before I know it.Thanks to all that gave me some advice and help and who continue to help. Love you all!!

I am not loving spring so far LOL! It has snowed the whole time basically! Makes me so mad. I like spring usually because I get to be outside doing flowers and cleaning but its hard when its snowing like its the middle of winter!! I just hope to see some clearing and start doing the flower thing and cleaning my storage out. Its nice to go through it all and see what we can use this time of year and what we need to put away. Now, I have some sad news... My grandma isn't doing the best. She broke femur in 3 places last Christmas Eve and has been going down hill ever since, she was in the hospital for 3 months. She would not do any rehab because she's stubborn so that made her stay as long as she did plus she didn't eat because she hates the hospital food. She is skinny as can be and just the other day her kidney's were shutting down. They got her stable but now they are finding other things. So, we will have to see what they hear from other tests to find out what we can do or can't do for her. We are hoping for the can do part because we don't want to lose her but I am afraid that is where it is going from here. Anyway this makes me upset so, I will end here. We are good and this is all that has been going on for us. Thanks for tuning in today!!! ;)

School

So, its blog time again! I need to really start blogging more but I just don't get on here as much as I would like plus I don't know what to talk about because I don't have an interesting life. We are kinda boring LOL! Here is some news.... Andrew is moving up in his job and is very happy. He has moved up three times in the past two months which is great for us and him. He hopes to go further while in school because we are not sure how long he will be in school plus after school he needs to look for an internship and then find a job. I have been here for him and support him in all he does and I am so happy and proud of him! He has accomplished so much and will do so much more in the future and I will be even more proud. Now, I am trying to do some school as well I just don't know exactly what I want to do. I might for right now just go to SLCC and do some generals and go from there. I will research and see what I would like to do that would make me happy to get up every morning. So, we will see if anyone has any idea's that would be much appreciated!

Love Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mine and Andrew's Valentines day was good! We had the most wonderful day... it started with us sleeping which we don't get to do because Andrew works six days a week and then I made breakfast. (Cream of Wheat our favorite)! We spent the afternoon spending time together also something we don't get to do a lot, which was great. That night we went to dinner and a movie.. dinner was at Chilli's (our reg place) and we saw Friday the 13Th. It over all was a good day and I am happy the way it turned out. Oh, of course we exchanged gifts in that time. I just wanted to tell Andrew how much I love him and I am so thankful that I found the most loving, caring romantic man in the world! He takes care of me and sacrifices a lot and I don't know a lot of guys that would do what he's done in my life. Love you baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On another note I have had a really bad head cold. My throat has been very sore and my head feels like a balloon. I am slowly getting better and Andrew has been there for me the entire time which is wonderful, like i said he is great and I wouldn't trade him for anything. I am also thankful for all my family and friends that help out as well. Love you all! Well, I thought that I would get on and update a little bit and now I am going to watch my soap opera. Yes, I watch them its my weakness ;)

Update/Superbowl/Love

I haven't posted in a while so here I go....... Andrew and I have been just great! Of course we have our ups and downs, but who doesn't. I haven't been doing great on this whole diet thing but I have decided I will just eat right and exercise and we will see how it goes from there. I have never been good a restricted diet, I think that if I eat what i normally eat and stick a salad,fruit and vegetables in there I can lose weight. So, that is what I a going to do and we will see how it goes from there. I do have a routine with exercising... I go to the gym three times a week with my husband then I do yoga at home on the off days. It seems to make me feel better which all that matters.

Andrew has looked into the National Guard as an alternative for paying for school and further his experience in other fields as well, so we will see what him and I decide we still have alot of praying and fasting and just looking more into it. I will update you guys more when we have come to more of a decision, right now its just an option.

The Super bowl was last Sunday and I think it was a great game overall. I was rooting for the underdog just because I don't watch much football, but Andrew does and I of course had to watch the super bowl, plus I think its the funniest game to watch. The commercials were great and so was the half time show. The plus was after the game there was the all NEW Office! I was so excited! It was the best one I think of the season. So if there is any office lovers let me know what you thought. Oh and to all of you who don't watch it you miss out big time it is a great show for sure!

I am excited for Valentines day. Its just a great holiday I think just because you don't just get to say and express your love to your honey you can also tell your family members and all those who mean alot to you. That is why even when I was single I loved that day and still did stuff for others that I loved. Which brings me to this last note... I love all of you who have always been there for me even if you think you haven't you have in your own little way. Everyone I meet touches me and I will always remember that. Thanks again!!!

School

E ai tches!!! Well... this is going to be my final semester at SLCC and I am glad to say so cause I can finally tell people I go to the U and continue on my degree in meteorology. However, it is sad a little cause I love SLCC and I love the campus and there are some great people there. I have four classes. Portuguese 2020, Maps and measurments, Biology Lab, and Trig. Wish me luck.. I need it for trig. lol.

Updates......

So, I just wanted to talk about some goal updates.... I have been going to the gym for about a month now with no putting it off. It is great and makes me feel great when I do it! I am trying to eat right also , no greasy stuff and that makes me feel hundred times better. I have decided that I am not going to pay a lot of attention to the scale and go by inches because its hard to tell when you are weighing muscle and all that so as long as I lose inches I know I am doing good. So far really good. I plan to talk more about this as the months go on so keep tuned LOL!

Now about the getting out of the house and making friends. Well, I took a walk through my complex and met a couple that was really nice. I just found out that they just moved in and this will be there first Sunday. So I told them I would help them around. I meeting great people like that who brighten any ones days it always makes your day. I plan on making some treats and bringing them to the people in my building just to say hi and to let them know we are neighbors and if they need anything I am here. I hope that will start some good friendships close by.

I am looking to see what school I want to start at either the U or SLCC. Not quit sure yet so we will see. I am also looking into majors. I am really thinking business or health care. We will see, I probably will go talk to a counselor and see what comes of that. If anyone has any suggestions that is more than welcome! Thanks for listening to my update and I hope to give more in the future!

Goals in deail

So, I was told that i need to say what my goals are, So that friends and family can help me out with accomplishing them. Well, first I would like to lose some weight. I will not say how much I would like to lose because I am the only one that needs to know. I also would like to get a better job so that we can live more comfortably and not worry as much. Then I would like to get out of the house more because I really don't get out when I don't work especially when Andrew is gone all the time. Finally is I would like to get going with school and finish as much as I can, that way it will help with the job process and also i will have something if something ever happened to Andrew heaven forbid. I would say the biggest ones that i would like to work on the most here is the weight and school. I would like those accomplished the most this year. If anyone has any idea's that would be great. I just don't want to pay a lot of money to lose weight that's a big thing that stands in my way. I sound weird and may not make since but that's OK I am just rambling LOL! Thanks for listening people's.